Tag: connection
A Heavy and Knowing Heart
September 13, 2018
The silence is screaming in my head. My deeper truth knows it’s okay. My presentable self is deciding whether or not I am being honest. I wonder if I am really accepting the approaching marriage of my ex-husband, tomorrow, to another woman or whether I am suppressing emotions that I am afraid will surface. I’m […]
Inner Truth Trumps Fear, Every Time
April 3, 2017
I have become entranced by the propeller that sits idle just outside my window. It works its way into a crescendo rotating into a magical Spin Art image that brings me back to a memory of my son at the age of 6; squeezing paint in different colors onto a spinning cardboard canvas. I am […]
Obligation v. Spirit
September 11, 2016
I am choosing my spirit over obligation. It took a long time to decide this because I was of the mindset that I could fulfill both my promise to stay in my marriage and preserve my spirit. When the sacrifice poisoned more of my spirit than it promoted, I battled to sync the two. It […]
17 Years Earlier (Excerpts from the Birth of Tariana Jade)
May 10, 2016
Today is my 3rd baby’s birthday. She is 17 and drove me home tonight. She is just as beautiful today as the day she was born. I have a ritual of sorts to go back on the birthdays of my children and re-read my account of their births. Many times I share the stories with them on their […]
Swimming to Feel Free and Connected
May 1, 2016
Sometimes, like today, I think that swimming is the experience that brings me the closest to feeling connected with the universe especially when it involves open water. For just a time, I am part of this indescribable whole. The water, in an endless entity all it’s own has welcomed me in, keeping me afloat and permitting […]
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