Tag: healing
My Thriving Plant
May 12, 2018
My plant is thriving. Nearly 3 years later. The plant had been given to me by my 2 closest friends. They were (still are) married to each other. They were my anchors in my greatest times of need. The plant was a gesture of kind wishes as my marriage came to a close and my […]
Anxiety, Addiction & the Fear of Being Still
February 19, 2017
The truth is; I’m fucking terrified. Of being still. I work really hard at filling my moments with things that feel good. I’ve long since replaced the bad-for-me “feel good” things with things that I believe are good for me. Instead of mind altering and body numbing additives that attack my liver, and blood and […]
Walking Through the Fire
December 25, 2016
I have been walking through a multiple alarm fire. It feels like hard stuff. My fear has tempted me to hide under the bed and endure a little more smoke. At least I could crawl up in a ball there and feel safe. My higher power has encouraged me to challenge the flames and focus […]
Questioning, Questioning. Death and Rebirth. People and Things.
October 12, 2016
How much validation is there in the Christian practice that seeing the dead body helps to obtain closure? Do the Jews get over it much more slowly than those that have the ritual of an open casket? If so, I think I’m ready to see it, the dead body. (I don’t really want to see it.) But […]
Obligation v. Spirit
September 11, 2016
I am choosing my spirit over obligation. It took a long time to decide this because I was of the mindset that I could fulfill both my promise to stay in my marriage and preserve my spirit. When the sacrifice poisoned more of my spirit than it promoted, I battled to sync the two. It […]
“Enlightenment is Imminent” (In the Spirit of the Hawk)
September 5, 2016
I get to feel out loud when I write. It qualifies what is inside and makes it more real. Accountable, vulnerable, exposed and real. Why not? If judgments are coming my way they are coming whether I expose my humanness or not. They are coming whether they are accurately evaluated; or not. Putting myself out there […]
Heartbroken. (We Have to Carry Each Other & the Infinity 8)
May 15, 2016
Waking up and putting my feet on the floor and going to spin class after crying for two days was not easy for me. The point is, even though I felt like dying, I’m not dead. And as long as I’m alive I have a job to do. And that job is to live. As […]
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