Tag: support

A Heavy and Knowing Heart

The silence is screaming in my head. My deeper truth knows it’s okay. My presentable self is deciding whether or not I am being honest. I wonder if I am really accepting the approaching marriage of my ex-husband, tomorrow,  to another woman or whether I am suppressing emotions that I am afraid will surface. I’m […]

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Three Angry Birds

I often look to nature for symbolism and answers when I am internally conflicted. Internal conflict amounts to confusion, frustration, anger, fog, and a host of other uncertainties that I am not fond of. Birds often provide me with some clarity and a shot at detangling the message if I am able to get to […]

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Lighting My Own Fire

I am home… (” to a place I’ve never been before”, John Denver would add). Baker Creek Cabins, Lake Louise, Canadian Rockies. Soaking in the simple. I’m unsure of what my message is in this moment. It has taken me 4 tries to light the wood burning stove and now it is finally crackling. I […]

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Heartbroken. (We Have to Carry Each Other & the Infinity 8)

Waking up and putting my feet on the floor and going to spin class after crying for two days was not easy for me. The point is, even though I felt like dying, I’m not dead. And as long as I’m alive I have a job to do. And that job is to live. As […]

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The Letter Opener

I walked into work on Monday morning and sat at my desk.  Initially I was supposed to meet a friend for a hike though began feeling work remorse because I spent so little time here over the weekend.  As a retailer my presence is often required during the weekends.   During this time of year, however, […]

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How I Know a Dove Represents My Mom

This Island, Culebra, offers a generous representation of morning doves. Cooing, floating, making sure I know they are there. It’s quite comforting. It has become clear to me in this moment, why, on the morning of my mother’s burial (my birthday) that the Universe presented her to me on the roof of a neighbors home in […]

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The Swan Picture from Moms

When my mom passed away and my siblings and nieces and nephews and children and I were talking about things that we wanted to keep of hers all I could think was that I wanted nothing more.  I had so much already.  She was such a big part of my life as well as my […]

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