Tag: process
Inner Truth Trumps Fear, Every Time
April 3, 2017
I have become entranced by the propeller that sits idle just outside my window. It works its way into a crescendo rotating into a magical Spin Art image that brings me back to a memory of my son at the age of 6; squeezing paint in different colors onto a spinning cardboard canvas. I am […]
Progress.
May 26, 2016
“I, friend, do not reject the present moment to pursue what time will bring. I reject what time will bring to pursue the present moment.” -Sammidhi, (Deciple of the Buddha) The thing about progress is that it never equates to flipping a switch. Often times I know where I want to be. My experience […]
Feeling Yucky at 9… or 49
May 19, 2016
Sometimes my little guy withdraws. If he is angry or annoyed or sad or experiencing anything beyond what most of us would describe as simple, unpleasant emotion he clams up and there is what feels to me like an impossible wall to penetrate. I keep trying. I keep hoping. It breaks my heart because, for […]
Heartbroken. (We Have to Carry Each Other & the Infinity 8)
May 15, 2016
Waking up and putting my feet on the floor and going to spin class after crying for two days was not easy for me. The point is, even though I felt like dying, I’m not dead. And as long as I’m alive I have a job to do. And that job is to live. As […]
Change, Rebuilding & the Tapanzee Bridge
April 20, 2016
It’s a new sunrise, in total disguise. Even the great forces of the universe show up in contrast to themselves over the course of their journey. I am crossing my favorite bridge. The dark sky and rain cast an image of gloom that I am challenged to look beyond. I permit myself a moment to […]
Using a Cold Pile of Snow to Feel
April 18, 2016
It’s just taken over me. An intense shot of adrenaline stepped into my wake and created waves of my emotions. They are screaming “pay attention, don’t you see you’re avoiding me?” It is the voice of my almost-adult challenging my troubled child to to face the unpleasant feelings. (Okay, maybe it’s more like anxiety or fear though adrenaline sounds so […]
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