Category: Healing
My Thriving Plant
May 12, 2018
My plant is thriving. Nearly 3 years later. The plant had been given to me by my 2 closest friends. They were (still are) married to each other. They were my anchors in my greatest times of need. The plant was a gesture of kind wishes as my marriage came to a close and my […]
Beyond My Comfort Zone
April 26, 2017
It’s amazing what happens to my body and mind when I wade through the waves of something I am uncomfortable doing. I am self-trained at avoiding conflict at all costs. Putting up my hands to defend myself when I could just suck up the punches is a foreign arena. It numbs me and distorts my […]
Anxiety, Addiction & the Fear of Being Still
February 19, 2017
The truth is; I’m fucking terrified. Of being still. I work really hard at filling my moments with things that feel good. I’ve long since replaced the bad-for-me “feel good” things with things that I believe are good for me. Instead of mind altering and body numbing additives that attack my liver, and blood and […]
Questioning, Questioning. Death and Rebirth. People and Things.
October 12, 2016
How much validation is there in the Christian practice that seeing the dead body helps to obtain closure? Do the Jews get over it much more slowly than those that have the ritual of an open casket? If so, I think I’m ready to see it, the dead body. (I don’t really want to see it.) But […]
Leaping and Feeling the Pain
May 4, 2016
As I drive up to mom,s condo I sense the denial of what inevitably is to come and tears simply start to flow. As it has been, I make my way through the front door and feel numb. I want to numb more. I collapse on the bathroom floor, a grown woman feeling like a child. I […]
Emotional Growth Beside My Daughter
April 12, 2016
I cannot count the number of times it has been commented to me by family and friends over the past 2 months how my 16 year old daughter has changed, how she has matured in this past year. I see it too and I wonder what has transpired to cause it. It’s a positive change. Growth, […]
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