Tag: trust

Inner Truth Trumps Fear, Every Time

I have become entranced by the propeller that sits idle just outside my window. It works its way into a crescendo rotating into a magical Spin Art image that brings me back to a memory of my son at the age of 6; squeezing paint in different colors onto a spinning cardboard canvas. I am […]

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Questioning Commitment and Truth

I walk into a long overdue yoga class after weeks and days of feeling overwhelmed by my life. I have not been to a 12-step meeting in a long time either. Emotional and spiritual practice: Fail. Nor have I blogged. My sponsor poses the question as to why I think that is. I want to ignore the question […]

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Athabasca Falls, Alberta, Canada

The Canadian Rockies Backroads trip has been untouched as far as nature is concerned. I am awed by the scenery and by the camaraderie. More than that I believe I was led here to accept and let go. Yesterday we got off our bikes to take in Athabasca Falls. I became consumed by its power. […]

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Heartbroken. (We Have to Carry Each Other & the Infinity 8)

Waking up and putting my feet on the floor and going to spin class after crying for two days was not easy for me. The point is, even though I felt like dying, I’m not dead. And as long as I’m alive I have a job to do. And that job is to live. As […]

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17 Years Earlier (Excerpts from the Birth of Tariana Jade)

Today is my 3rd baby’s birthday.  She is 17 and drove me home tonight.  She is just as beautiful today as the day she was born.  I have a ritual of sorts to go back on the birthdays of my children and re-read my account of their births. Many times I share the stories with them on their […]

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Letting Universal Attraction Lead the Bear Mountain Hike, Sedona, AZ

God is an incredible artist! The way the colors blend and contrast looking out from this Sedona summit are unreal. There is no explanation. On the hike up to this peak at the top of the Bear Mountain trail we were challenged and awed.  One of our games was to find letters in nature that spelled […]

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Heart Lake, Lake Placid, NY

The quiet.  Aligned in a grace that overwhelms my senses.  At peace.  With the thought of a nature I may have never known.  A world that exists beyond my awareness, though exists harmoniously, just the same. I feel safe. Taken care of. Trusting my source, if just for the moment.  I pause to feel my existence.  […]

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Happy 50th Birthday to Me, A Gift From the Universe

It is sunrise on the morning of my 50th birthday and I am sobbing because I am overcome with the intensity of the portrait I am viewing.  It is a gift like no other and I am having a hard time believing that it is for me.  It is though, for me.  I am worthy. […]

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Drum Circle, Full Moon, Cathedral Rock, AZ

From a short distance away I listen to the drummers orchestrating a beat as the full moon reveals itself to Cathedral Rock, one of the infamous vortexes in Sedona, AZ.  I have been led here in spite of those that indicated that the drum circle doesn’t happen here at this time of year.  Either way I […]

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Go Forth Into the Fog

I am craving a beautiful sunrise.  Or at least a sunrise that I can witness.  Though I’m mostly a believer, sometimes my soul asks for proof.  A powerful sunrise offers that to me.  I’m not going to get that this morning and I’ll have to trust that I’ll find some other way.  When I wake up […]

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